random -__-"

seorang anak PMR menyapa gua hari itu, dan dia mulai nanya.
temen : "Shad, si *peeep* itu punya penyakit kambuhan ga sih?"
gua : "punya, emang kenapa?"
temen : "pantesan pas BLDK dia sakit gitu. emang sakit apa?"
gua : "Vertigo."
temen : "Ooooh.."


everything reminds me of you. everything in this entire world. i do a thing, i remember you. why does it always happen? do you know, that all of this is driving me crazy?
i walked on the street we used to walk on. i played the music on my playlist. well, it played the song we used to sing, too. but i'm too lazy to click the forward button.
and for sure, i saw it.  silhouette of you and me, walking together, side by side, laughing and enjoying the day. everything seemed okay, there was no problem between us. 
till that day, when we decided to separate. it's hurt, really. but i think there's okay for you, this things even don't bother you at all. 


but it's different for me. hours, days, months, seem so hard to get through of. despair, no hope, desperate, depressed, i feel them. they suck, they keep disturbing me in every second of my days. at night, i feel so hard to close my eyes, but feel sick to stay awake. what's wrong with me? 


who are you? why a single ordinary person like you can turn my whole world upside down? what did you do to me? why do you and your things keep haunting me?